Due to its all-consuming nature, being a professional athlete is tough, and I think you must be a little bonkers to really take it all the way. Day in day out every little thing you do will ultimately pose the question \u2018what is the benefit of doing this that is going to help me to achieve my ultimate sporting goal?\u2019. At one time early on in my career, I pointed that question at my sexual orientation, and for a while, I had to really battle with myself to find the right answer.<\/p>\n
My name is Matt Lister, I was a canoe slalom athlete for Great Britain for over 10 years, winning medals at European and World Championships, narrowly missing out on 2 Olympic games. 2012 and 2016 \u2026And I\u2019m gay! <\/b><\/p>\n
I always knew I was different growing up, from a very young age I loved to dress up in my sister\u2019s clothes and play with her Barbie\u2019s, and for my sisters\u2019 10th birthday my parents even let me go to see Spice World the movie, in full posh spice drag at the age of 6.<\/p>\n
In my early years at school, I wasn\u2019t exactly a prime candidate to be a successful professional athlete. I was a little overweight, geeky, useless at any sports that involved a ball. Not only did this keep me distant from my friends who would play football and rugby, but it also stopped me from thinking I could ever pursue a career in sport.<\/p>\n
I had a lot of friends growing up, but I would still describe my childhood as lonely. As I progressed through my teenage years, I felt my peers had left me behind. The boys were starting to date the girls and vice versa, and I knew that didn\u2019t work for me, but I was too afraid to tell anyone how I felt. Being obviously different also branded me with a big target on my forehead for bullying. I was picked on at school, occasionally beaten up and called names daily.<\/p>\n
I never felt I had a role model who fitted me that I could look up to. There were times that I felt so distanced and out of place, not sure of my place in the world, that I would have suicidal thoughts. I know I am not alone in my community for feeling this way growing up in the closet. <\/b><\/p>\nTAKING UP AND PARTICIPATING IN SPORT<\/h4>\n
That brings me to my sport, something that finally started to make sense to me and give me purpose, although not at first.<\/p>\n
I first tried canoeing when I was 6 years old, although it wasn\u2019t until I was around 12, I began to go more regularly, but for the most part at the beginning, I was just a nuisance. We would go to the local swimming pool on Sunday afternoon each week, and each week I\u2019d spend 5 minutes doing what I was told, and an hour pushing people in and sinking boats. Until one week I was told I either did something productive at those sessions or I couldn\u2019t come back.<\/p>\n
So, I got enrolled into a grassroots scheme called \u2018paddle power\u2019 where you took part in competitions for all the different disciplines of canoeing, and for each one you completed you got points to progress through the award tiers. I went along to competitions in Sprint, Marathon, Whitewater Racing, Freestyle, Canoe Polo, Sea Kayaking and Slalom\u2026 overall I\u2019d done very well across the board in all the different disciplines, but the one that grabbed me, probably because I had won my first few races there, was Slalom.<\/p>\n
I was scouted by the British team and from the age of 15, I was training and racing full time. Slalom is a sport that is very heavy on technical aspects as well as physical. It can be quite a dangerous sport and with that can come a lot of \u2018macho\/bravado\u2019 behaviours and attitudes. This wasn\u2019t such an issue until there would be a difficult move set in training, someone would say it was too hard, and one of the others would bark back \u2018don\u2019t be so gay\u2019. It didn\u2019t happen often, and after years of being picked on at school, I\u2019d built quite a thick skin, but still hearing people use the word \u2018gay\u2019 in such a negative way almost pained me to hear.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m an honest person, and I despised lying to anyone about anything, especially about who I truly was. It was making me miserable not being able to be myself, so at the age of 18, I decided enough was enough, and that it was time to come out.<\/p>\n
Coming out I would say is still one of the hardest things I\u2019ve ever had to do. When you\u2019ve built up a life around you, friends, family, career, but in an instant all that can change and, in my head, I could lose it all.<\/p>\n
I am happy to say, my experience was more than positive. I had an unbelievable response coming out. Not just from family and friends, but also from my teammates, my international competition, even from complete strangers who approached me via Instagram, Twitter, or Facebook.<\/p>\n
One of the best things about coming out was feeling so free on the water, I was happy, and my results improved because of it.<\/p>\n
I wrote a piece for the charity, RUComingOut, and basically did what I am doing today, sharing my story of coming out. At the time, I didn\u2019t realize when an athlete comes out as gay publicly whilst they are still competing, it\u2019s a big deal.<\/p>\n
The story went \u2018viral\u2019 for lack of a better word. It was being retweeted and shared left right and centre and I was receiving messages from people all over the world congratulating me. Which I still find strange, being congratulated for being myself.<\/p>\n
The story I wrote even reached two of the boys who had helped make my life a living hell whilst being at school. Both had beaten me up, called me names like faggot or poof, they both managed to get hold of my number and apologized profusely for the way they had treated me. One even commented that his now son liked to play with Barbie\u2019s too just as I did, and he\u2019d be horrified if his son\u2019s friends acted the same way to him.<\/p>\n
I did however have one bad response from a member of another team at the European championships, the day before our qualification race. I knew the word had spread quickly through the sport about my coming out because, in the world of canoe slalom, your business was everybody\u2019s business. One of the other competitors came up to me and told me that his father would have drowned him at birth if he\u2019d known he was gay.<\/p>\n
Suddenly all those feelings and emotions came back to me from school when I was getting called names and being beaten up. I had made such huge leaps forward and suddenly in my head, I was back at square one. I completely shut down mentally from what I was supposed to be doing which was preparing for the race. But with it being the day before the qualifications for all my other teammates I kept it to myself and tried to put it out of my mind.<\/p>\n
It played on my mind through the entire race and after a rocky qualification, we blew out in the final. I must put a large portion of that blame on myself because my head wasn\u2019t where it needed to be, and all because of one comment I had let get to me.<\/p>\n
After coming out I felt a much tighter bond between my training partner and my coach, I was able to be completely honest with them for the first time in my life. I spoke to them about what had happened at the competition and together we worked through it as a team. We created strategies with the sports psych to be able to compartmentalise incidents like that to eradicate the risk of it being a detriment to us in future. My team also highlighted to me the incredible response I had had from everyone else for having the guts to come out, I couldn\u2019t let one bad response get to me.<\/p>\n
Moving into life after sport, I would have to say that being gay and coming out has done nothing but open more doors for me.<\/p>\n
I started working with LGBTQ charity Stonewall on their school role models program, where I was able to visit schools to share my experiences as an athlete and coming out as gay. I was amazed to see that some of those schools now have LGBTQ focus groups and \u2018safe spaces\u2019 for their students, and during a couple of the visits, more students joined the groups and came out to their friends whilst I was there. Knowing that if I\u2019d had the same support systems in place when I was in school, maybe things could have been a little more different.<\/p>\n
I became the LGBT Athlete Ambassador for the British athletes\u2019 commission in 2015, this was the first position of its kind appointed by a player\u2019s association. The role was a chance for me to create a point of contact for athletes like myself who have felt lost with issues that aren\u2019t necessarily problems that a coach or a teammate would understand.<\/p>\n
I was picked up by the UK\u2019s leading gay publication Attitude Magazine who wanted to run a story about my position at the British Athletes Commission and my retirement from the sport. This then became a cover story and when it ran, they received such a great response they asked me to come back and work with them as their regular fitness writer.<\/p>\n
So, what needs to change moving forward? I think first and foremost the key is understanding that both society and sport need to move forward together, LGBTQ athletes need to be more at the forefront of the media to offer themselves up as role models for younger athletes trying to follow in their footsteps.<\/p>\n
A lot of homophobia comes from misinformation or misunderstanding, this can be tackled very simply, by educating ourselves. Have conversations with LGBTQ people about their experiences, we\u2019re literally everywhere around the world, you\u2019ll never escape us! I learn something new every day about my community and try to pass that knowledge on, to be the change I want to see.<\/p>\n
There are athletes who believe that coming out as LGBTQ will damage their sporting career, that they\u2019ll lose sponsors or fans. But you only must look at the overwhelmingly positive response NFL star Carl Nassib has received since coming out recently to see the world is ready. More players associations need to have either an athlete in a role like mine or a visible point of contact to get support to the athletes who need it most in these situations.<\/p>\n
There needs to be more of an active role from the LGBTQ community\u2019s allies. A gay person shouting about gay rights to gay people isn\u2019t going to get us as far as we\u2019d like. Last year I worked with and supported Stonewall again with their rainbow laces campaign. Which saw an exchange of a pair of rainbow laces at every premiership football game over a weekend. It acts like this that are so simple, but so necessary.<\/p>\n
The LGBTQ community has come a long way, but it is highlighted further every day in the media, that we still have so far to go.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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